This is a Diary. Diary. diary

hell. im telling u that my life is sucks now. I wonder would it gets better by day . or would i ever getting more mature or would i get it through just like that.

I'm sick of everyday think about the past

everyday figuring out what's wrong with my attitude

trying to make myself a better man/girl

making myself think three or five times before the words pop out from my mouth

to be as low profile as possible

smile to every new friend that i met no matter how sad i am that day

*hey i just realize that im not faking my smile but i just too used to smile. OKay

people don't respond to my word i just feel so down

being sensitive afraid that someone might have taking about my bad words again

and no matter how happily I laugh , that's always void in my heart.

I hope u don't see this.

okay i tell u this not what i want.

i don want this.

i don wan i don wan i don wan i don wan i don wan i don wan i don wan don wan don wan don wan don wan don wan don wan don wan

I'm not a crown I'm not a parasite I'm not stupid I don't live my life for others

you asked why would u be so emo everyday? when u read this

but u wont see this in my real life. u would only see i smile everyday

I'm not faking my smile nor laugh but I have no other expressions for u
I don't feel like giving my heart for u
I feel you're so different from me

perhaps the only thing that i can give is my smile?

nothing else i can . seriously.

*ps don talk bout my car i hate being a driver

hell im so sleepy now.

gah. i just don't wanna lose myself. i just wan a simple life. with my simple plans.